So... been away for a while. Couldn't find the fucking internet cable thing at Tim's. His room, of course is a fucking sty. I clean it every couple of days, and within hours it's trashed again. I'm currently sitting in the middle of a bunch of beer cans. I don't drink all that much beer, and when I do, it's Sam Adams, which comes in a bottle. So guess whose they are? He bitches he can't find clean clothes... maybe he would if they weren't all over the fucking place.
Anyways, off topic. I notice I missed a lot. Anasilen, I'm so sorry for worrying you. Tim dragged me away from the computer and didn't dig out the cable until a few days ago, and he doesn't like me being on the internet cuz he thinks the GOMSers wilL hunt me down by IP address. He doesn't realise that they're all just a big bunch of pussies. THE PUSSY GANG!!! W00t!
So... I am glad Dorian finally decided to give up his obsession with GOMS. Funny thing is, for the longest time, he justified himself and said it wasn't an obsession. I wasn't aware that he had a grief counselor, but ok I guess. In the past month I've realised that I really REALLY don't like Tim as much as I thought. It was one of those "He's here, you're there" type things. I feel so unintelligent around him. I have a pretty decent intelligence level, but my problem is the people I've hung around for years... They got me talking rather crudely. Tim enjoys correcting EVERYTHING (which some may say I do; not ass badly as he does). He keeps lording his I.Q. level over me.
I'm tired of cleaning so often and not getting ANY appreciation.
AND I REALLY WANT SOME FUCKING HEAD!!!! I haven't had any since I met him. Of course, he thinks he's entitled. I shave for him, I shower twice as often as normal for him... still nothing. I can't even get off anymore. If I don't feel like I'm appreciated as a woman, I can't get off. I'm not a fucking sex toy, and that's apparently what I am to him.
SO, off the subject of Tim. For Yule, I got a PSP (which was promptly hacked the hell out of so I can do tons of shit. Stuck a Meat Is Murder sticker on the back!!! I also got a Dark Knight DVD collector's set with a comic book with the original appearances of The Joker and Two-Face, and it also came with a Two-Face coin!!! Also in the present category, I got a neclace and earring set that matches the ring Dorian gave me. Exactly - made by the same guy. Apparently he only made a small amount of each :)
Omen, anyone? I've been having so many omens lately. The one that really gets me is every time I go to the bar, Someone does karaoke of a song I equate to Dorian. I also keep having dreams.
OH YEAH! Most of you don't know I quit smoking! Mostly because Tim wanted me to, but now I really like being able to smell stuff again. I've been smoke-free since the 16th!
So... I know I probably should have put all this under a cut. Gomen...
Current Music: Heresy :)